I had a meeting with someone from college today and all of the sudden I can't wait for my life to begin. I can't wait until I meet new people and start working. I want to become more goal oriented.

Dare I say it, I might even spend less time on here *GASP*

I want to start taking my writing more seriously. I'm actually thinking of publishing some of my works. Mostly all of my writings are not on here, and I don't want it stolen.

I'm excited to grow up. I'll give up so many things... but I feel I'll gain a lot more. I'm tired of living my life so carelessly. I feel like I'm becoming more sloth like and less willing to get up in the mornings. I don't care if people kick me for this, sometimes I do feel stupid...

I want to learn... but I feel held back... for no other reason except unwillingness. So I have decided to change the bad about myself, and expand on the good.

I hope whoever reads this journal will think about this too. Don't let life get you down because you have to leave childhood. Foces on the positive and leave the negative in the dust.

I thank everyone who helped build my confidence, and wish the ones who tried to damage it well in life. Just remember, what goes around, comes around.

I hope everyone has a wonderful life.